World, the, needs of (Warriors' Experience)

Author: Theun Mares. Link to original: (English).
Tags: Bigotry, Confronting, examples, fear, needs, openness, Toltec Teachings, world Submitted by Warriorskeep 28.01.2017. Public material.

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into German: Перевод "World, the, needs of (Warriors' Experience)". Translation is not started yet.
Submitted for translation by dashkamarch96 17.11.2017
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Submitted for translation by Warriorskeep 28.01.2017 Published 1 year, 8 months ago.



Theun, can you please help me with fear? I have a reached a point where I feel fear in most of my interactions with the world around me. I don't know what is wrong with me, for when I am not fearful I am angry. But then I become fearful again because of having expressed my anger. All of this seems to have become worse ever since X and I came to consult with you in South Africa. My feeling is that this has got to do with fear of power and authority. Am I on the right track, Th├йun?


:) You have a HUGE heart filled with a great deal of warmth - a warmth you long to SHARE, but you are too frightened to be VULNERABLE, and so you choose instead to live a LONELY existence, even though it brings you no joy. So, yes, you find yourself swinging between the polarities of FEAR and ANGER. The fear comes up when you WANT to OPEN UP - it comes up because you fear REJECTION, fear being HURT, fear making a fool of yourself.

But then the anger kicks in, an anger at YOURSELF, but which you then PROJECT onto the other person. But remember that anger is ALWAYS the desire to fight for CLARITY, to find the KNOWLEDGE which is lacking, to find the way forward. But when that anger is directed AT, whether this is at yourself or at someone else, it goes nowhere other than to CONFIRM to you that you have been wronged, misunderstood or whatever. This is why I have so often teased you about surrounding yourself with fierce women, for you so NEEDED these fierce mirrors to help you gain an insight into your shortcoming, Bigotry. :) What I am saying, Y, is that if you look deeply enough you will find that it is easier for you to hold onto the bigot's view of the world than to allow yourself to be fully open and vulnerable so that you CAN express your love and your warmth.

So what happened for you in South Africa? You and X came to me because you both so WANTED to support me in the work I am doing. I shared with you both that I do NOT have the time to DO what you both proposed, but that if you REALLY want to help me, and support me, then you must STRIVE with EVERY fibre of your being to be the BEST Y and X you can possibly be. I even went on to say that I love you both and BELIEVE in you to BE the BEST, but you must please DO it FOR yourselves and BY yourselves, meaning, please do NOT do it for ME, but for YOU, because it is YOU that the world NEEDS!

I tried so hard to get the message through to you that although I would truly LOVE all the support you were offering me it is not PRACTICAL, quite besides which, the only REAL support you CAN give me is to JOIN me on the battle field of life and to fight for all you are worth to HELP create the world we wish to live in. But you can only DO this if you do it FOR yourselves and BY yourselves out there, using your OWN personal power and your OWN belief in SELF! I even got Z to assist me in this by asking her to give you the female, or more precisely, the NEGATIVE input! B-:) But you and X were furiously hanging onto the Bigot and the Romantic respectively, and so you felt attacked, annihilated, belittled, unappreciated, disillusioned and whatever else you felt at the time. LOL! I point this out, NOT as an accusation, but in an effort to bring you the clarity you are seeking.

Later, upon your return to the UK, you wrote to me again, making offers with respect to possibly organising for Z to run workshops in the UK, but you came at me from the angle of money! LOL! It was then that I whacked you senseless for offering me MONEY instead of your HEART, your WARMTH, your LOVE! But still you chose to retreat in fear, and then later in anger! You may have suppressed the anger, I am not sure, but I could see the anger in you, much as I can see it in L now. Right now I am not on L's Christmas Card list! LOL!

Y, if you are hungry, you can always find a way to eat; if you need money you can always find a way in which to make money. But what of the millions of lost souls out there that live in a COLD and HOSTILE world? As I said to M at this past retreat, "Where will these people find the love, the understanding, the support, they so long for?" Food may be scarce, and money too may be scarce, but not anywhere NEAR as scarce as TRUE under-standing and TRUE support! The world out there, my friend, needs your HEART, your WARMTH, and not your money as such, or what you can do FOR them! :)

So is it REALLY power you fear? Is it really authority you fear? :) No, my friend. What you fear the most is OPENING your HEART to the world around you, because what happens if you get it wrong, if you screw-up, if you get rejected and hurt? So is it really ME you fear, my friend? No! What you fear IN me is my UNBENDING intent to go out there and to give it my ALL! This is the MIRROR you fear! :)

Take the retreats as an example. What is it about them that REALLY disturbs you? Have you noticed that it is not REALLY the clarity people get at the retreats that makes a DIFFERENCE in their lives? Have you noticed that it is not REALLY having the teachings made CLEAR and PRACTICAL for them that makes the difference? Have you noticed that what truly TOUCHES and therefore makes the REAL difference is being LISTENED to with love, with warmth, with under-standing and with support! Within this last sentence, Y, lies ALL of the ESSENCE of the TRUE teachings that can NEVER be verbalised, for they can only be WITNESSED.

I trust this will guide you in the right direction.