Материнская сторона Осознанности (Путешествия Воинов)

Theun Mares, “Mother's Awareness (Warriors' Journeys)”, public translation into Russian from English More about this translation.

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Mother's Awareness (Warriors' Journeys)

Материнская сторона Осознанности (Путешествия Воинов)

History of edits (Latest: Keyoteart 5 months, 2 weeks ago) §

— Материнская осознанность? Warriorskeep

— Скорее - "Осознание матери", судя по содержанию delphiman

As I re-assess my life I can see how large a part "fear of mother" has played, tied up as it is with seeking the approval of "mother".

Когда я пере-оцениваю свою жизнь, я вижу насколько большую роль сыграл "страх матери", как и связанное с ним стремление к одобрению со стороны "матери".

History of edits (Latest: Warriorskeep 5 months, 2 weeks ago) §

I've put the word "mother" in quotes, because many different people can represent and be perceived as the mother: for example, your wife, your boss or an older, respected friend.

Я разместил слово "мать" в кавычки, потому что множество разных людей могут представлять и воспринимать в качестве матери: к примеру, свою жену, начальника или старого достопочтенного друга.

History of edits (Latest: Warriorskeep 5 months, 2 weeks ago) §

So what is this a fear of? I don't feel there's an easy answer to this, but would like to share my own experience of working with this.

Так в чём же состоит этот страх? Я не чувствую, что есть простой ответ на этот вопрос, но хотелось бы поделиться своим собственным опытом работы с этим.

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There is a fear of punishment, of being wrong, of being bad, of failing, of somehow not being what the "mother" wants you to be.

Там есть страх наказания, совершить ошибку, быть плохим, проиграть (failing), так или иначе не являться таковым, каким "мать" хочет, чтобы ты был.

History of edits (Latest: Warriorskeep 5 months, 2 weeks ago) §

This last phrase is important: not being what another wants you to be.

Эта важная фраза: не являться таковым, каким другие хотят, чтобы вы были.

History of edits (Latest: Warriorskeep 5 months, 2 weeks ago) §

In recapping, it is clear to me that to belong and feel a wanted member of the family required I that towed certain lines. As a child, I explored a great deal, and time and time again, this was stated to be outside the bounds, and I was punished in some way.

При перепросмотре (recapping), мне стало совершенно очевидно: чтобы соответствовать и чувствовать себя желанным членом семьи, необходимо подтягивать (towed) некоторые линии. В детстве, я вновь и вновь открывал для себя многое из того, что называется выходом за границы, и меня наказывали тем или иным образом.

History of edits (Latest: Warriorskeep 5 months, 1 week ago) §

It doesn't take a child long to learn that if they are going to survive, then they cannot be who they are, but must instead fall in line with what is demanded.

Это не продлится долго даже у детей, чтобы изучить - если они хотят выжить, тогда они не могут быть теми кто они есть, а вместо этого должны подчинится тому, что требуется.

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To that end, I became what my mother wanted me to be, namely: "a good boy who did as he's told".

В связи с этим, я стал тем, кем моя мать хотела чтобы я был, а именно: "хорошим мальчиком, делающим то, что ему говорят".

History of edits (Latest: Warriorskeep 5 months, 1 week ago) §

Having spent so much of my childhood intent on building this cage for myself, it became largely invisible to me. All I was aware of was the effects emotionally and behaviourally. My actions were often designed to cause minimum fuss. Rather than follow my feelings and thoughts on a matter, I would choose based on what the "mother" would like.

As disempowering as this felt, I also felt there was no other option available to me. I had believed that this was, somehow, who I was.

Seeing that and owning it has been brought me a lot of tears and a lot of regrets.

Yet I know that having written my own script, it was the challenge I needed. So having set this up for myself and bought into it hook, line and sinker, now is the time for the payoff in terms of learning. The gifts are there, if I work for them.

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